Update Today

So, you might be asking, how was the CCC focus group? Well we loved the floor plan options and gathered much more information about the planned Phase IV homes but we still have no idea WHERE we rank in terms of priority. The best case scenario is that we make a deposit August 2010 and hope to move in August 2011. OR the next best case is we make the deposit in Fall 2011 and move in the fall of 2012. Twenty-twelve was our original 'move to' date when the market fell apart in 2008 but now it looks like we could sell the house sooner which would please DH to no end. But can we contract for a home sooner is the big question.

As for me, I am beyond caring. My life at this point is so routine (gym, groceries, laundry), with occasional time for Photoshop and sewing/quilting that I only see the process of selling and moving as yet another interruption. Once moved and resettled I hope that my life can gain a new momentum and find more ways to do more things.

Priority for me today is packing for a week in the Midwest and a week on the West Coast. While I am looking forward to the visits and the celebrations, I am not looking forward to the air travel. I do remember when flying was something to look forward to, not anymore. Sister Jan and Rich are driving out but I'm not sure I could take more than a few hours in the car.

Part of my efforts this past week have been to check classmates.com to find a few of the Class of '60 members who plan to attend the reunion next weekend. Found only a few, looked at a long list of names I can no longer put a face to and actually contacted: one.

This is an emotional reunion for me; adjusting my attitude is a large part of the effort. The four years I spent in a small town high school in the Midwest were among the worst years of my life. Adding to the frustration were several relaltives who kept telling me that high school would be the best time of my life. It was not, or it never seemed so at the time.
Yes, I know high school is a period of growing and adjusting for all teenagers but I felt out-of-place, un-cool and suffered from very low self-esteem. That and feeling overwhelmed most of the time. What I needed was college but after all these years I have not re-connected with any college classmates. Is it me or is it the mobile generation we all became?

Once the overwhelming sense of new places and new people was mastered, I just kept going. And now I will meet the old high school crowd and learn what they have done with their lives. Somewhere I hope to find a connection with someone who shares my interests and maybe has had similar life experiences, but I wonder. Once I left that small town for college and university, I never lived there again. My two brothers married local girls, bought property and raised families nearby, one of them practically next door to Mother. My sister and I both left (me sooner, she eventually), moved eastward and we now live in North Carolina. And with second husbands. Since leaving college I have lived/moved to about a dozen different addresses. What does that say about us?

One thing is says is that the next move will be the last. That's what I've said the last three houses but this time I do not expect to be leaving the CCC. Well I probably will but not to an earthly address.

The future is just not what it used to be. bbf